Currently Playing Weak's End By Emery Fractions <3 see related

well........

FINCH IS IN 47 DAYS..

Emiley is muchos better.. I guess..
  stress..

and whatnot..
I think i deserve every little bit of it..

I have been recently looking for a new church.. and recently trying to get better with god..
but its like.. I dont know what to repent.. cause ive screwed up so much..
and i dont think god would be alright..
with admitting ive screwed up this past well few years...

im not content with my life.. and i think thats something major i deal with..

i always say things that i really dont mean...
like i get upset...
and blame something.. anything.. a slight annoyance.. just anything.. even if it isnt that persons fault.. even if i really never had a problem with them..

and i apologize.. cause.. im sure one of you are going to read this and think. .well she is a hypocrit...
no.. i just have to deal with alot..
and its like.. i cant take blame for my own problems..

i need something better than what ive given myself..
people that dont always bring me down...
im sick of worrying about stupid things..

thats why i gave him up...(mister parish)
no matter how much i liked him.. or how much i wanted to..
i couldnt do it.. i couldnt hurt myself..

I want a guy that actually believes in god.. someone who doesnt worry about sex or whatnot..
i have thought about it for a while..
and i wasnt living a christlike life...

and thats all i was doing..
well this is it..

<3 emiley amanda