i think i had a wonderful day today also...
its been really hectic and busy..

i think i might go to church with skyler in the morn.. cause he did call and invite me.. which i totally appreciate..
i had an orange cream slush earlier.. and it made me smile...

me and megan are about to head to the flower shop then.. to edmond.. to watch little shop of horrors..

eric is the dentist..
it will be good.. :D

well im off.. <3

emiley..

go vote for defected... the link is in the previous post!!!

<3<3

Currently Playing Weak's End By Emery Fractions <3 see related

well........

FINCH IS IN 47 DAYS..

Emiley is muchos better.. I guess..
  stress..

and whatnot..
I think i deserve every little bit of it..

I have been recently looking for a new church.. and recently trying to get better with god..
but its like.. I dont know what to repent.. cause ive screwed up so much..
and i dont think god would be alright..
with admitting ive screwed up this past well few years...

im not content with my life.. and i think thats something major i deal with..

i always say things that i really dont mean...
like i get upset...
and blame something.. anything.. a slight annoyance.. just anything.. even if it isnt that persons fault.. even if i really never had a problem with them..

and i apologize.. cause.. im sure one of you are going to read this and think. .well she is a hypocrit...
no.. i just have to deal with alot..
and its like.. i cant take blame for my own problems..

i need something better than what ive given myself..
people that dont always bring me down...
im sick of worrying about stupid things..

thats why i gave him up...(mister parish)
no matter how much i liked him.. or how much i wanted to..
i couldnt do it.. i couldnt hurt myself..

I want a guy that actually believes in god.. someone who doesnt worry about sex or whatnot..
i have thought about it for a while..
and i wasnt living a christlike life...

and thats all i was doing..
well this is it..

<3 emiley amanda